High Risk Update 32 Weeks

So we all thought things were happening according to my last post. That's not so much the case any more. Babies seem to be rather comfortable in my womb and show zero signs of coming out. I am exactly 32 weeks today. Baby A weighs 4 pounds 2 ounces and Baby B weighs 4 pounds 7 ounces. So they are pretty close in weight again, it's so strange because B was so much bigger last time. My high risk doctor gave me the cervix award of the day because my cervix is still 4.6cm long and closed! He is always impressed that my cervix is holding out so well and better then most people. He said apparently my body didn't want to get pregnant but now that I am pregnant it's taking it like a champ! That means all this walking I've been doing hasn't done anything and all these contractions haven't been affecting my cervix either. I've just been trying to slowly help the babies come out sooner rather then later, but not too soon of course. I have a scheduled c-section for July 12 when I'm around 38 weeks. That's 6 weeks from now. I guess thinking about it that really isn't that far away but it seems really far on the days I'm miserable! I hope I can make it to at least 35/36 weeks. I think that's a great time, they will be healthy and probably will do just fine. Thanks to my primary care doctor she said she'd help me out by trying to stir things up by doing a pelvic exam when I see her next at when I'm 35 weeks if I haven't given birth by then.

That's really all the updates I have. Just overall the babies seem like they will never come out! The last couple days we have been trying to tour our local hospital where we will be delivering but they have been busy so we haven't been able to go. I understand completely but at the same time my babies could come any day and I have no clue about anything. Hopefully in the next week we'll be able to go check it out. We are all ready for them though for the most part! I seriously am getting so impatient, I just want them here safe and sound so I can cuddle them and move on from this infertility/pregnancy journey. I guess we have waited over 5 years to have these babies so a few more weeks should be nothing, but each week I just get so excited because we are just that much closer! I'm dying to know what they look like!

Here's a couple photos of the girlies! They have some hair now and I'm hoping its my color hair! :)

Baby B

Baby A

Cute aint it! :) That's all the pictures we really got today. The others are a little blurry. They don't really sit still and are always facing the wrong way. So I have a new list of things I eat these days. I still am obsessed with eggs and cheese things like mac and cheese. But I have been craving coffee lately which is so weird because I used to not like it that much. I also crave tomatoes just straight out of the fridge. Ramen is now on the list as well. And I always want the nachos from the target cafe at target. I just love food! I think that's it for now, Ill update more later this week with a 32 week belly photo.

Things are happening.

So since my last update about my high risk appointment things have been happening. Last week I had a regular OB appointment. It turned into an all day affair in labor and delivery. I just told the doctor how I had been feeling and such things so she checked my cervix. It was really soft she said and with having ANOTHER uti she shipped me off to the hospital to be monitored. I was contracting as usual. I was put on an antibiotic until I deliver. My cervical length was checked and it was down to 3cm. I'm glad it's somewhat shortening because then the babies might actually come out eventually! I'll be 30 weeks tomorrow so just 2 more weeks till a huge goal of 32 weeks! I seriously can't believe our girls could be here in 4-5 weeks! That's a month! A month! I'm starting to freak out a little the closer it gets, time flies. I feel like we just did our IVF last month or something. Well I've been on my antibiotic for a week now and I'm still having contractions. Last night they were pretty close but this morning they have subsided. It's so strange. I feel like I never know when I should go to the hospital, last night I was so close to going but then I figured they would just monitor me and send me home again. For some reason the contractions come a lot more at night and during the night. But during the day they are few and far between. So who knows! Well here's a few pics.

29 weeks and 5 days. Looks so strange.

I'm so so so miserable!!!!

The cutest thing in their room now! I did this all by myself! 

High Risk Appt. Update

So Tuesday marked the 28th week. I had my high risk appointment that day as well. Wasn't very eventful which I suppose is a good thing. We found out Baby A weighs 2 pounds 14 ounces and Baby B weighs 3 pounds 2 ounces. So I am carrying 6 pounds of baby. The doctor said they are definitely growing well and both are bigger then a singleton would be at this point. Guess my protein shakes are working their magic. My cervix is still really long at 4.8 centimeters. I'm kind of starting to wonder if the babies will ever end up coming out. Other girls who have had babies at this point theirs were around 3 centimeters or even less then that. So I'm getting nervous that the babies are too comfy and are going to weigh like 6 or 7 pounds by the time they come out. Which I know is great but not for me haha. My back and ribs will give out or my lungs will collapse. But we'll see. I go back in 4 weeks and at that point I'll be 32 weeks. Once 32 weeks comes I am all for the babies coming out soon after that. By then they'll probably each weigh at least 4 pounds. But yea anyway. Nothing else to update from that appointment. I just feel sick as usual. Here's some pictures to enjoy.

Baby A yawning!

Baby A again

Baby B

I'm 28 weeks now but look at this size different from last week and the week before!

My cat Edmond still testing out all the baby equipment, its so cute but I'm definitely going to need to vacuum and lint roll all these things now before the twin's arrival.

And here is the mobile we got for each crib. Them things are so expensive! But are so cute and no crib is complete without a mobile.

Seriously?

I already wrote this post then decided to accidentally delete it. GRRRRRR!

Anyway, now my post will be shortened because I do not feel like rewriting all that again. Im 27 weeks 3 days today. Things have been tough the last couple weeks. Dealt with some real contractions last week so I ended up in labor and delivery. Things turned out fine, I just had another uti so I got more antibiotics. Once those kicked in my contractions have subsided a lot. I have an appointment with my high risk doctor next week and I can't fricken wait. Haven't seen the girls in a month! I've been a little concerned about baby b because she feels like her space is becoming limited since she's stuck up in my ribs and baby a moves around so much compared to her. It's crazy to think that in a little over 4 weeks the babies could arrive any time. They'll be a little early but they'll be fine. It'll be such a relief since I'll know they are here and they are mine and I won't have to be pregnant any more. I can't wait. I feel like I'm back in the first trimester sickness wise. I constantly feel the urge to puke and now I get light headed and feel like passing out occasionally. For example Wednesday at my ob appointment I had my 1 hour glucose test so I drank the drink and ended up passing! With flying colors. The cutoff number for passing is 140, I was 102! I figured because before I got pregnant I had low blood sugar. Anyway afterwards while still at the doctors I got lightheaded and pretty much passed out in the office. Guess its common my doc said. But she rushed to get me a soda and gave me one of her personal granola bars and I felt better. She's very nice, I want her to deliver the girls but I don't get to choose, it's whoever is on call that night. Makes me sad. But yea that was a traumatizing event. Guess I'll post a few pics of things!

This is me at 26 weeks 3 days

This is the awesome stroller my mom got us! Contours options tandem stroller. The seats are reversible to face to different directions and it can cart around 2 infant car seats. 

Got two of these car seats from my sisters. Love them! Chicco Keyfit 30. My cat Edmond needed to make sure they were comfortable first. Which I think they passed his test because every time we go in there he sleeps in them. 

I guess that's it for now. I'll be back after my appointment next week, hopefully with pictures of the girlies!

25Weeks3Days. Been busy.

So holy cow has there been so much going on! First I'll update on the babies progress. They are doing fine. Both almost weigh two pounds. Heart rates are good. Cervix still closed and good. They move around a lot now and I can feel them moving all day long. Sometimes it even catches me off guard because I'll be relaxing and then all the sudden I'll get jabbed in the ribs or gut and it feels so weird and slightly painful. My symptoms are becoming annoying and painful. It's hard to do much throughout the day now, I can go for about an hour or so and then need a break. My feet/ankles start to hurt and are sore. My knuckles and fingers are sore. My back constantly hurts. My sternum hearts a lot of the time because theres a baby up in my chest. And lastly I'm becoming more tired these days I have noticed. I'm exhausted by 8 at night usually.

I had my baby shower this past weekend up in Ohio. Before I get to that I'll explain my uncomfortable drive to and from. On the way to Ohio I stopped about every hour to pee or walk around. It took us about 12 hours to get there. I went through periods where I was uncomfortable and then where I was fine. On our way home to NC it was a little more difficult because I had no room to move around or lay in the back seat. I was confined to the front seat. It wasn't as bad as I had thought it would be but it wasn't fun. I stopped about every hour again but sometimes I could last a little longer just because I wanted it to be over. I didn't swell that bad just an occasional foot or something but it didn't last long.

So for the baby shower, it went amazing! It was great to see so many people show up. Friends. Family and people I didn't even know but my mom invited. We got so much I can't even tell you explain how insane it was. I felt guilty but blessed at the same time. Guilty because people spent so much money on the babies but blessed because we got enough stuff that the husband and I don't have much else to buy. To highlight a couple items we got include, tons of diapers. swings. those bouncy gym things. 2 car seats. clothes some of which were personalized with the girls names and initials, diaper genie, bumbos, hand knitted blankets and a whole bunch more stuff. It was amazing. I'll post pictures once my sister sends me them.

Everyone kept saying I wasn't as big as they thought. Which I guess is good but also made me paranoid. My doc yesterday said I was measuring fine though about 6 centimeters ahead which means I measure about 31 weeks. I don't feel small though and my weight just keeps going up and up. I weighed 156 at the doctors yesterday!! Yes I'll announce my weight. I used to weigh 113.

Washed some of the clothes. Still deciding how I want to arrange the clothes and where to put them. I'm thinking hang all newborn clothes and possibly 3 months. Then put the rest in drawers. Not sure there's enough room for my plan. I got the coolest stroller. It's called the kolkraft contours options tandem stroller. I'll post a pic once I take one.

I'll finish later, got to go round up the dogs that are getting into trouble.

23 Weeks 4 Days Belly Shot

Definitely getting larger. And definitely feeling it too.

Round!

23 Weeks Today

It's been a little crazy around here for like the last week. I'll start with last Tuesday. I went into the doctors freaking out because I thought I was having contractions. Apparently I was but they were braxton hicks, ya no those annoying scary contractions that don't mean anything. Doctor also said I was probably dehydrated so I need to drink more water. She also checked my cervix, by using her fingers... gross... but it hurt like hell. Then after I was bleeding and cramping, so of course that was scary. But the only thing I got out of that appointment was some reassurance that I'm doing great and she prescribed me an amazing belly wrap to help support the beach ball on my front and give me back support. It feels great!

Friday we went to a cookout with some friends. It started off fun but then I started getting uncomfortable and the smoke from the bon fire was killing me. Otherwise a good time. Then Saturday we did a little shopping and I started working on party favors for the shower. Sunday we went to a friends baby's 1st birthday party. It was a good time, until I got uncomfortable again. I really can only last like an hour or two out of bed before I start feeling shitty. But it was fun, lots of preggos and lots of babies!

I had another doctor's appointment today with my OB. A little follow up from last week. But I've been feeling sick so I'm glad I had the appointment. She prescribed me yet another medication. Woohoo. Can't wait to be done taking so many pills. This new pill is to calm my bowels because they are irritated from being squished by our little rugrats. They just want to calm things down so it doesn't cause preterm labor. But they checked my cervix again and it all seemed fine. Still got told I need to drink more water... Its freaking impossible I swear. Before I got pregnant I usually drank like 2 or 3 drinks a day, now I have to drink closer to 10. It's hard, there's no room and my stomach has been a mess so again it's hard. Next week I see my high risk doctor. Then I travel to Ohio. Then as soon as I get back I have to see my OB. Which at that point I have to have my gestational diabetes test.

Next week at 24 weeks is viability of the babies. Meaning with a lot of medical help they can technically live outside the womb.

The husband got offered a new job. So he's getting out of the Marine Corps. We will be moving to Texas. I was planning on going right after my shower, but that can't happen as soon as I thought because I need to be here for my doctor appointments. Long story. But I can't leave yet. Bums me out majorly. But I'll explain more of that later.

Echo Done.

So I had my echo done on my heart today. It was the most awkward experience ever. Not sure if everyone knows what an echo is but it basically is just an ultrasound of your heart. So I was shirtless with my giant milk filled boobs while some lady navigates the ultrasound around my chest... It was mostly awkward because of the boobs but also because she was awkward. I think she might have been a lesbian. Which is totally fine, but I'm not going to lie that it was weird. She pissed me off at first because of all her comments she wanted to make about twins and then them being both girls. She's like "wow that's going to be rough" or "wait till they are teenagers" and "that's going to be a handful". Just bugged me because she was snotty about it not saying it in like a caring way.

She made my day a little better in the end though. She wanted to see what twins looked like so she did an ultrasound on the babies. It was a terrible ultrasound because she didn't know what she was doing and her screen was small but I still got to see them in there. It was nice of her to do that and I didn't even ask she just wanted to see them.

I won't know any results or anything from the echo or the heart monitor until Friday at my follow up. I just wanted to share my awkward experience of the day. I ate some fiesta potatoes from taco bell and now I don't feel so hot so it's nap time.

21weeks 4days Belly Shots!

Don't mind my ripped up pants. I just love these pants too much to throw them away! But I think I might have to soon...

If I was pregnant with a singleton I almost look full term... too bad I'm not full term. My stomach feels like it's going to explode. I'm super nervous about what it's going to look like when I reach my 32 week goal. I'm pretty sure I'm not going to be able to move... do I even have enough skin to stretch to accommodate 2 babies at 32 weeks? I feel like I'm not going to make it that far. It's scary. But I really hope I can at least make it to then. Anything after that will just be a blessing.

Laying down I don't look so huge. But it's very hard to sleep and roll over. It's also hard to get out of bed, especially every like 30minutes to pee. Peeing has become weird lately. I'll have to pee really bad all of the sudden and if I don't go right away within like 2 minutes the urge is gone. I think it has to do with the position of one of the babies. I have one baby laying down low in my belly and then the other one is on top of that one laying down, that one keeps kicking me in my right rib cage. It feels so weird and sort of tickles. I'm also wondering how come some woman's belly buttons like pop right out? Mine isn't. And I don't think it's going to, it's just flat and still pushed in slightly. 

I only got about 3 weeks until my baby shower! I can't freaking wait! And I'm so excited to come home and get everything together so everything is ready to go. When I go on bed rest soon I won't be able to do anything so I want to finish it all right after we get back from Ohio. Of course after I rest for like a day because I can guarantee that car trip is going to be brutal. 

I've been up and about a lot in the last week or so. Wednesday I was running around town all day. Thursday I had my appt. plus shopping and running around. Friday we went shopping and out to dinner. Saturday we went to the St. Patricks Day festival in Emerald Isle. I need to rest but I'm finding it difficult. Im so antsy and bored. I'm addicted to shopping and I want to buy something new everyday. I've also become a lot more tired these days. For the longest time I couldn't sleep, but now I can sleep in till 11 or noon if I let myself. But I always force myself out of bed so I can eat. Or I'll feel bad like the babies are going to starve... 

High Risk Appt. Update.

Welp, I had my usual high risk appt. today. It went well also as usual. My cervix was shorter but that's because they measure it differently then my OB. He put pressure on my abdomen so he could see how long it was as if I was lifting something. So it made my cervix about 4.8cm which is about 1cm less then if I was just sitting in my bed. So that's all still good. Babies fluids were still good. They both measured a week ahead at about 22 weeks, so baby A caught up some. They each also weigh a little bit over 1 pound each. Both of the girls were wiggle worms during the ultrasound, it was hard to get great pics but I did get some. It was more difficult for the ultrasound tech, she had to keep redoing some of the images since they kept moving. I'll post pics at the bottom. I also asked to see my doctor right before we leave for Ohio just to make sure everything is ok right before we go. Then I'll ask my OB to see me right when we get to make sure the stress from the trip didn't harm anything. But everything is great. Oh and baby A was like head down already ready to come out! ha. Her placenta also is moving away from the cervix so thats good. I think I will stick with what I've been doing since it seems to be working... Laying in my bed 90% of most days. I feel them move so much now, it grosses me out a little because it's weird, but at the same time I love it. I don't use the heart monitor really at all any more since I can feel them moving. You can even see them moving on my belly, it's pretty weird and cool! Oh little fun fact for those who want to know... kinda gross so don't continue reading the rest of this paragraph if you don't want to know..... So a new development that most woman will have when pregnant is that their boobies start to leak... well mine have started :) It started a little last week but now its gotten to be more. I had to go buy some breast pads to put into my bra. That would be embarrassing walking around and all the sudden there's two wet spots on me haha.

I also went to the cardiologist the other day since my OB referred me there for the heart palpitations I have been having. Now I have to wear a heart monitor 24/7 for 4 days. I only have the rest of today and tomorrow then I'm done. Thank God because the connector things that attach to my skin are fricken itchy. I cheated last night though and I took it off so I could get a good nights sleep. Anyway they are just doing it to make sure I'm good, which I'm sure I am. I also have to have an echo done on my heart next week. I've been having palpitations for along time now though since about 2005 they just got worse when I got pregnant. So they are just repeating the tests I had done years ago to check things out.

That's about all the updates I have about health and babies. I'm just excited now for our baby shower and seeing everyone we invited! I have other news to announce but I don't want to until I know for sure, but it has to do with the husband's job. Ok now for some adorable photos from the appt! I'll post a pic of my giant belly in a couple days, I just want to rest because I have been running around all day and I am tiiiired!

Baby B profile and her legs and cute little feet!

Baby A profile and cute little foot and hand!

Aren't they just darling! I feel like I love them more and more at each ultrasound. The more they start to look like little people the more excited I get. We got to see their noses and mouths but the pictures didn't come out that great... it looked good on the machine but once they print the pictures they are a little blurry and not as nice. But one baby def. has my pointier nose but with Josh's huge nostrils. The other one looked like it had my nose. I think it was baby B, but she has long legs! Her femur measured to 24 weeks! So I think she's going to be the tall one. But they were rather cute!

It's been a week, so why not.

Holy cow. First of all I'm grouchy today because I want to do all these things around the house and I can't because my back and feet start killing me. So I have to enlist my husband to do most of everything... which he does a good job just not the way I do it. It bothers me. Sometimes he complains, I don't blame him but it makes me feel guilty that I lay in bed most of the day. Only a couple more months then I'll be able to help.

I don't really have much to update. I think my UTI is over. But since I didn't even feel it in the first place, I guess I wouldn't know. My cold is over. I don't really have any sicknesses right now (knock on wood) just starting to get bad back pain and my feet hurt if I'm on my feet longer then 10 minutes. I have a cardiologist appointment this Tuesday. A high risk appointment on Thursday. I'm stoked, I can't wait to see the babies and make sure everything is ok. I had a weird contraction last Sunday, haven't had one since but I hope it didn't shorten my cervix too much. And I hope I don't get any more (knock on wood).

We put up the owl/tree decal in "the room" yesterday. Well husband did, I watched. I read a story to the babies and opened a few of their things. I'm still a spazz and I won't open anything or take tags off till after my shower. I'm still too paranoid.

I have a list in my head I need to write down eventually of every single thing that needs done before they arrive. Want to hear some of my crazy list? Ok, you're going to.
1. All floor in the house must be vacuumed, mopped or scrubbed.
2. All baby items in the their room need wiped down with disinfectant (bumbo I bought from someone and their cribs for example)
3. Dust every single nook and cranny in the house. Including the walls, fans, ceiling, blinds etc.
4. Clean all the appliances in the kitchen (fridge, oven, microwave)
5. Somehow clean the couches because they are nasty.
Ok, I'll be done with part of the list. Which husband will be doing it all because by then I'm sure I'll be on bed rest or too huge to move.

I also have a list of things that need done in "the room" before they come. Wanna hear some of that list? Ok.
1. Separate all clothes by color and wash them with that special baby laundry detergent. Then obviously hang and fold.
2. I need to find a couple shelves to hang in their room
3. I need safe blinds and curtains still
4. I need a curtain rod that fits in the closet to hide the closet. I took the door off because it wasn't safe.
5. Wash all bottles
6. Sanitize all pacifiers.
7. Put together everything like swings, bouncers etc...
Ok, I'm done with boring you with that list.
Do I sound crazy? I just want every single thing to be clean and stay clean. Which is going to be difficult with 4 dogs and 2 cats. Did I mention the dogs aren't allowed in their room, except Cooper on occasion. And the cats aren't allowed either unless I'm in the room preventing them from doing things like climbing in cribs leaving their pet dandered hair all over everything. Want to see the decal? Ok here it is.

See the kitty in the first pic? Yea the only reason I'm allowing him to lay there is because he's laying on a blanket. Getting his hair stuck to that instead of the chair. 

Belly shot and rambling

Here I am... 19 weeks 4 days preggo.

See that stomach muscle bulging out? It hurts every time I move or laugh. 

I wish men really could have babies. See how they like it! I look a mess in this pic. Prob because I'm just getting over my cold. My mouth hurts. Now I have a UTI, which I'll explain later.

This is the girls room so far. Not much, just the furniture that I had a hormonal breakdown over. We'll have more together after the baby shower. Which is April 7th. I can't wait.

Ok, now for my rambling. So now that I'm over a cold my OB called me to inform me that my pee sample indicated a UTI (urinary tract infection). So of course I'm like so thrilled. I have to be on another antibiotic for 7 days. I didn't notice any signs that I even had one so I was shocked. But now thinking about it and knowing I have one, I can tell now. Peeing every 5minutes, I thought was normal in pregnancy but I guess not as much as I have been. The random pains I've been getting in my belly are not growth pains but my bladder and kidneys. Either way it freaks me out because I didn't even realize I had a UTI, how am I supposed to know if I'm having small contractions. From about 20 weeks on is when things start to get messed up if they are going to. Like signs of preterm labor, sickness or cervical problems. I'm praying to God nothing major comes up but with these sicknesses I've been dealing with my hopes are not high.

When to the second dentist, apparently I do have to have a root canal. I have an absess in my gums above the tooth. They took an x-ray. It looked interesting. Don't worry I had two lead vests on to protect the womb. So yea, now I have to come up with money to get my root canal. We all know that the dentist is not cheap. Like I feel like spending 300 dollars on my tooth when that could buy me things for the babies. So it might have to wait till they are born. I can live in pain till then probably... you'll just have to hear me complain till then.

My baby shower is April 7th and I can't wait for it get here! Mainly because I'll be reaching about 26 weeks but also all the people I get to see and celebrate with! My mom and sister are planning the whole thing, thank god cuz I'm in know way capable of doing any of that these days. So I just get to show up and eat all I want and see everyone. Hoping to get a lot of things off my registry because some of the stuff is important. Of course everything we get we'll be appreciative about, but some things you just need. We'll see. I think I'm more excited for the food! 

K that's all I got for now. 

19 Weeks

Babies are doing so good. Today I feel really good about them. My cervical length at the doctors was actually longer this week then the last time! 5.64ish. Which is outstanding! I've been trying really hard to relax as much as possible and haven't been lifting things or spending all day on my feet so I think that has helped. The babies are about 1 week apart from each other, I think baby A was right around 19 weeks and baby B was about 20 weeks 3 days. Got some shots of the girls girly parts (see below). My ultrasound tech today was a little crazy... maybe she had too much coffee or she forgot her meds. All I know is that it was like 8am and I got know sleep so I wasn't in the mood for her peppy craziness. She kept singing and dancing and talking all weird to the babies. I just wanted to see the babies and cervix then go take a nap but since she was horsing around it took forever! By the time my ultrasounds are over I'm exhausted and have to pee so bad! I love seeing them but my anatomy scans always take forever and I mean like 40 minutes to an hour! It's a little brutal but I love it.

I brought up a couple questions at my appointment today. I asked about the heart palpitations I have been having. So now I have to see a cardiologist. I think it'll be fine and it's just my heart working harder then it's used to. I already had an ekg at my doc last week and it was fine. So we'll see. I also asked about when we should tour the hospital. The doctor said whenever we want really. Most people wait till the 3rd trimester but with twins anything can happen so we can go whenever we want. I'll probably wait a little while though till maybe I'm 25/26 weeks.

Went to the dentist as well. It was not successful. They just referred me to another dentist which I don't remember what it's called. But they do more invasive things like tooth extraction, root canals and things like that. I go there Thursday. My dentist thinks I need a root canal but I don't believe him because my filling and tooth is all in tact and this pain started extremely sudden so I'm not sure. Guess we will find out. I can't really afford a root canal so hopefully it's something else. If I had a few thousand dollars I would remove all my teeth and get new ones...

Both babies were sleeping for most of the ultrasound and baby A kept yawning and stretching her long legs out, it was the cutest thing I've ever seen! Video of baby A yawning. Hope it works!

The girls girly parts!

The girls

They are officially named Ava and Kennedy. Although we won't know which one is which till they are born and we see which name fits who better.

Sickly.

Im incredibly annoyed today. The past few days I've been sick with a soar throat, stuffy nose and headache. I'm annoyed because I have been trying to be really careful about not getting sick. I heard getting sick while pregnant is the worst since there isn't much you can take. People were right. I have been taking children's dimetapp cold/flu the liquid kind but today I read online that it could cause fetal hypoxia. Meaning the fetuses won't be getting enough oxygen and could die. So good thing I've about finished off the bottle... NOT... I bought it because dimetapp was on my list from my doctor of things I am allowed to take except I don't think it meant children's version. I looked up regular dimetapp and it seemed fine to take while pregnant. I assumed children's would be better since well... obviously it's children's. So I won't be finishing off the bottle I will just live with my tylenol. Dimetapp only worked for about 4 hours anyway.

So here I am 18 weeks and a couple days pregnant. Sick and can't breathe. Fat and can't move. Who are these crazy woman who love being pregnant!??! ya'll are nuts! I'm not exactly complaining since I got myself into this and I know the outcome is going to be amazing beyond words but till then I'm allowed to be a baby and complain. I look forward to next Tuesday and Wednesday. Just to see my beauties again. Make sure they aren't going to fall out any time soon. I still don't feel that much movement which is bumming me out but hopefully I feel it more soon!

Husband put together all the furniture in their room already. 2 gliders. 2 cribs. 2 changing tables (1 of which will be a book a shelf). I feel weird about it. I think it's too soon. I wanted to wait till I was about 25 weeks before doing that. I about had a hormonal melt down while he did it. I keep telling him good luck taking all that apart if the babies don't make it. He thinks I'm being crazy. Which maybe I am but I want to save myself from overwhelming heart break if something goes haywire. So we'll see for now we call it the baby room instead of the green room like we used to call it. It smells amazing in there already with the new wood furniture smell and the amazing air freshener I have in there. Can't wait to add the baby smell!

Just some sentences and rambling.

17weeks3days belly shot!

Definitely getting bigger now! I feel it too!

High Risk Appt. Update.

Welp had my appointment today. Nothing to exciting to report. Found out my cervix length which was 5.24 or something which is really good for now. Baby A's placenta is partially covering my cervix which is called placenta pre via. Doctor wasn't really too concerned. He said as I get further along my uterus should stretch and the placenta will move a little further away from the cervix. But even if it doesn't the only concern is, is when I go to have the babies I'll need a c-section which I was planning on getting done anyway. I'm not supposed to really have sex (wasn't anyway) and I'm not supposed to lift anything (wasn't anyway).

Baby B is significantly bigger then A. She measured around 18 weeks 4 days and A only measures about 17 weeks. Doctor again didn't seem to concerned. He just thinks baby B is takes after her daddy and A takes after me. There weren't any signs of IUGR (intra uterine growth restriction) where the baby is being restricted by something and that's why she's not growing. So it should be ok.

That's really all I have to update about them. I couldn't get a video today... apparently at the high risk doctor you're not allowed to take video. I'll try at my OB appointment in 2 weeks. I also don't have a belly photo yet, you'll have to wait till I'm not lazy later.

We started painting the room. I don't like the color so we are keeping the color it was before we started. It's greenish. Which goes pretty well with the forest owl theme. I'm not spending another 30 dollars on a can of paint. Oh well. I think I'm done for now on buying clothes as well. I'll wait till after the baby shower. I'm focusing on diapers and wipes and other important things. My baby shower is set for Easter weekend. I'll be like 27 weeks I think. And probably huge!

Here are the photos of the babies I only got profile views. I wanted some gender shots but I'll take what I can get since ultrasound techs seem to be stingy on photos.

Baby A has a nice profile shot seeeee....

Baby B wasn't cooperating today so hers is not as good. 

Belly shot coming eventually!

A lot of Babies!

I just found out a 6th friend is pregnant! I felt the need to blog about it. I was all worried when we finally got pregnant that our babies would have no one to play with because all my friends already had kids and most were at least over the age of 1 or so. Now I got 6 other babies to have play dates with! I'm so excited that so many people are pregnant that I know.

I'm 17 weeks today. I wish I was bigger. I'm worried they don't have enough room. A lot of twin pregnant moms I see are bigger then me. Which I guess we'll find out on Thursday. I've been feeling a lot more motivated to get up and do things and I think I should slow down just a little. I'm not on bed rest yet and I don't want end up bed rest so I need even out my activities so my cervix stays nice and strong! :)

With all these other pregnant girls comes more fear that my babies won't make it and I'll have to watch a couple of my closest friends bring home their babies. I don't think I'll feel secure until I'm at least and I mean at least 25 weeks. Although 27 is better. I don't want to invite micro premies into the world. But so far I'm half way to our first goal of 32 weeks.

Anyway Happy Valentines Day! Sorry for the random boring blog.

Shopping spree. Well part of it.

My favorite outfits so far

Just more cute outfits. Some that match. Some that don't. 

Tiniest outfit I have ever seen! Thought I should get a few preemie outfits just in case. Most twins are born early. And girls tend to be on the small side anyway. 

Some of their clothes thus far! They are going to need a lot more. But that's what baby showers are for :) I bought more then this but they aren't on hangers. And we got cribs. 2 gliders that I hope fit in the room. Mattresses. Boxes of diapers and wipes. From this point on till after the shower we will just be loading up on diapers and wipes. Unless I find something I can't pass up!

I thought I was really picky about girls clothes before we got pregnant with two of them. Now I think nearly everything is super cute! I'm not too into too many things pink. But some is def. cute! And I'm not into anything too brightly colored but again a couple things are cute! Shopping for girls is more fun then I thought. And the fact we have two of the same sex is super fun to dress them the same! 

I keep joking that they better come out safe and sound because of everything we have already bought. It really does scare me that something can go wrong at any point. Then what? I already delegated the husband to be the return man because it'll be too rough to even go in that room. But I'm trying to bottle up fears and try to stay positive. Just the more things we get and the more people we tell I get so scared. Some people at this point in pregnancy still haven't announced their pregnant. And everyone we know has known since the day we found out. Just freaks me out and I'm getting more excited but with that comes more fear. I just can't wait to finally get what we've always wanted and have been waiting for for so long!

16 Weeks 1 Day Appt.

Went to the doctor today. They didn't really look at the babies too much. They were just checking my cervix which was just perfect. And heartbeats. I don't know the exact length of it, all they said was that it was more then 5cm which is fantastic and it looked great. So that was a relief. Anything under 3cm is in the danger zone. But they said no signs of anything like that. I go back in 3 weeks to have it checked again. Plus it'll be checked again next week at my high risk appointment. So I'm being closely watched which makes me feel a little relieved. A little disappointed we didn't get any sonogram pictures today. I don't have any good ones since the 13week ones. But probably next week.

I had a transvaginal ultrasound done today. That's how they check the cervix. As soon as she stuck the wand in she automatically said it was a girl. Which happened to be baby A. The one we couldn't figure out the sex of. So we got 2 GIRLS!! I'm not going to lie, I was extremely disappointed at first because I was praying for 1 of each. Mainly because I don't want to be pregnant again and I always have wanted a boy. But I'm over the shock thanks to some much needed baby retail therapy!

Bought a couple matching outfits! One in particular that is my favorite, It's a little 3month tutu dress. It's going to look really cute for when they get pictures done! I don't plan on dressing them alike forever, just when they are little. Even then it'll only be every now and then. I'll post pictures when I'm not being lazy later. I also got a little preemie outfit at Ross's for like 6 bucks and it originally is like 20. Cutest, Tiniest thing ever. Again I'll post pics when Im done being lazy.

That's about all the updates I have. I'll post again after my appointment next Thursday! Or before of cute things I've bought. :)

Blabbing

Tiredness has really kicked in the last couple days. BUT... I can't sleep. Doesn't make sense. It's too early to not be sleeping, I have a long road ahead of not being able to sleep.

Went to the doctor yesterday. Wasn't really that successful. BUT... we do know that there is at least 1 GIRL in the oven! I'm excited. I'll be even more excited if the other one is a boy! Like I said two girls isn't bad, I'll be thrilled. BUT... I don't ever want to be pregnant again (remind me to look at this like a year from now). I will get pregnant again with our leftover embryos (6 of them). But we will make sure just to put back a boy. Oh, and just 1 embryo implanted. Not doing the twin thing again. Not that it's not amazing, but I'm the worst pregnant person ever.

Next week I'm praying that the ultrasound tech can tell us what baby A is. Everyone I see is saying boy so far but no definite answers. Just guesses.

Today I've been really thirsty. Don't know why. I've had going on 6 glasses of beverage. 3 of which are water and I'll probably have 2 more glasses before bed.

I don't really have anything else to talk about... I am however so glad I know someone who was pregnant with twins not long ago and I can go to her for questions and advice. It's very helpful. I still use my fetal heart rate thing everyday. 2 times to 3 times a day. I'm hoping I stop once I can feel more defined movement. For now it's hard to tell gas from babies but I kind of have it down.

Time for dinner.

Crazy Mondays

I don't have kids yet. Of course they are still cooking. But I feel like I have kids. Monday's are a big reminder that I have too many animals and now I'm adding two kids to the mix. I think I might start pulling my hair out. My pets act like crazies all day. Mondays are the worst for some reason. Maybe they are grumpy that it's the start to another week, or they are grumpy that Josh is at work all day. Although I still don't get it, I have some of the laziest animals in the world. My cat Edmond sleeps all day when my other cat Miam isn't attacking him. My dog Stanley is too fat to really be that crazy on Mondays. But for some reason they muster up the energy to make my Monday hell. Chasing each other all over the house. Rough housing. Finding something to break. Chew something they shouldn't. Fight. That's their day and I feel like I just explained having kids.

My cats are now locked out of both spare bedrooms because one is Nate's (my bro) room. The other one will eventually be the babies room. So now they constantly claw our king sized bed. Dump their food bowl all over the hallway. Are they getting back at me?

I guess I just want to know what makes my animals act like jerks all day on Monday.

Nothing new with the pregnancy stuff. Got an appointment on Wednesday but not for pregnancy related reasons. For my chest piercing that is dangling out of my chest by a string of skin! Hopefully they can remove it all the way. But I am hoping to get an ultrasound that day and maybe just maybe they can determine sex! I'm ready to start buying stuff!! The wait is killing me!

Bell Shot!

14 Weeks 3 Days! I've gain about 20 pounds so far! Not telling what my weight is or how much I weighed before pregnant :)

No more hips. And a little extra back fat. HOT! not.

Swelling and Misery

So for the last couple days I've been having slight swelling in my hands and right foot. So I went to the doctor to make sure I was ok. And of course I was. Blood pressure was perfect, urine was crisp and normal no signs of a blood clot. I was reassured by the blood clot because I was worried that might of been what it was because I am constantly laying in bed. But doctor said I looked good. BUT I need to reduce my salt intake. Which totally makes sense now. A couple days ago I went crazy and bought a bunch of pickles at the store. Just so happens one of those kinds I bought tastes extremely salty. So I'm assuming those are the culprit. Wish I would have bought low sodium pickles because now I can't eat my pickles I got in the fridge. Complete bummer.

I also explained my concern about being short of breath and not being able to move around comfortably without feeling completely exhausted. Apparently that's normal too. Which, I know is a symptom of pregnancy but so soon?!?! I'm only 14 weeks! I still have at least and I mean AT LEAST another 14 weeks to go! I'm probably one of the most miserable pregnant any of you will ever meet! I don't know how some woman are so blessed to have symptom free pregnancies and get pregnant over and over again! I aint one of them. I hope after the babies are born I remember this and don't want to do it ever again! Which is why I'm hoping for a boy and girl. Otherwise I'll be getting pregnant again for sure to have a boy or I'll be very tempted to get pregnant again to get a girl.

I made an appointment with my primary care doctor (not my ob or high risk) to see if she can tell the sexes of the babies! I'll be 15 weeks 1 day. My friend who had twin girls found out around 15 weeks she was having girls. So I'm really excited to hopefully find out! Then people can stop asking and we can stop wondering.

By the way. Have I mentioned... I'M FRICKEN HUGE!

And the biggest news of all. I can very slightly feel them in there!!!! It's the weirdest feeling ever. Only happens occasionally but its a weird fluttery feeling. I can't wait till they are big enough that I can really feel them move!

Food cravings and aversions

So I have what I call the shit list. Which is food I have eaten while pregnant but then get sick after eating it. Two of the main ones are Chinese and pizza. Two of my favorite foods!! I can't eat either of them or I feel like barfing. Milk is an in-between sometimes I can have it sometimes I can't. Nothing spicy! I don't care for chocolate unless it's chocolate cake.

My favorite foods include strawberries, oranges and cheese. And of course like all other pregnant ladies, pickles! Any kind any flavor, I want them! Cherry tomatoes are awesome too! I like potato products like french fries, chips and baked potatoes. Iv been craving steak lately. I also like cheeseburgers a lot too. I also eat Taco Bell like once or twice a week! Chewing gum, weird I know but I crave gum sometimes.


Random pic for the day of my cat Edmond (Shnoodie). I don't crave him lol

Update about my High Risk Appt.

First of all my appointment was way better then my experience on Tuesday. I learned a lot and got a lot of useful information.

Babies are absolutely great, they look perfect in every way. So I'm a little more confident that this pregnancy should last till we have babies to bring home. The risk they have downs syndrome is pretty unlikely since the measurements were perfect. Again not that it matters but if they did have it, it would be good to know so we can plan and educate ourselves. But that's probably unlikely.

I get to see my high risk doctor once a month till the babies come out. At least for now, I'll probably see him more frequent once I get closer to delivery. He will continually check my cervix for any signs of preterm labor. I guess when you use icsi during IVF (they use a needle to implant a sperm into the egg to fertilize it) you have a higher chance of preterm birth. So I'm thankful for that because its something I'm extremely worried about. I mean who wants to carry babies for like 19 weeks just for them to not live because they decided to pop out early. I know I don't.

I have to see my gastro doctor for my chrons disease to make sure its in check because irritated intestines can cause contractions and preterm birth.

One thing that sort of makes me sad and feel bad is that I don't think we will be able to breastfeed. I can't go off my anxiety/panic medications because that can cause me to have panic attacks which obviously result in preterm birth as well. And I can't breastfeed if I'm on them. I was going to try wean off of them but the risk is too high. So I'm sad. I want to give my babies the best (breast milk) and I can't. Which means expensive formula it'll have to be.

His opinion about the hospital choice since Jacksonville's hospital is only level 2 nicu is just that he thinks I'll at least make it to 32 weeks so that way we could deliver at onlsow and everything will be fine. But since I see him frequently if he notices anything abnormal we'll already be in Wilmington so I can just be admitted there. So that makes me happy.

After today's ultrasound we are even more convinced that we are having a boy and girl. Baby B totally looked like a girl and the ultrasound tech kept calling her a girl and said she saw lady parts. No real comments on Baby A but the husband and I both think we saw penis! So I am going to be thrilled if it is a girl and boy!! We will no for sure at our next appointment February 16th! Maybe February 8th at my OB appointment but we will see!

Doctor also put me on more folic acid and extra iron. Just like I thought I needed but the regular OB acted like I was dumb. I swear I know more then they do half the time. He said I'm skin and bones and need to eat more minerals. Including different low mercury fishes and a lot of calcium. I haven't been able to drink much milk because it upsets my stomach but I'll try more yogurt and cheeses. I have been eating those a lot but I guess I need a lot. I love my high risk doctor, he is so thorough and explains everything.

Baby A

Baby B

Baby A heartbeat 160bpm

Baby B heartbeat 153

The technician was very impressed with the bridges of the babies noses. She kept saying they were beautiful :) I guess if you take Josh's huge nose and my smaller nose you get a perfect in-between nose! 

I guess that's it for my update. I feel like I'm forgetting something, but if I think of it I'll put in my next post. And hopefully I can get a belly pic in my next post, I'm just too lazy.

One thing I just remembered. Babies are measuring ahead. Surprisingly Baby B is bigger then A now! Measuring in around 13 weeks 5 days! Baby A was roughly 13 weeks 1 day/2 day. Usually he's ahead of the pack but not for now. We also determined baby B will be our problem child because she just does not cooperate during exams. Today she had her face squished into the placenta for half the ultrasound. And she's breech. But she constantly jumps around and moves. Baby A hopefully will be our laid back boy! :)