Crazy Mondays

I don't have kids yet. Of course they are still cooking. But I feel like I have kids. Monday's are a big reminder that I have too many animals and now I'm adding two kids to the mix. I think I might start pulling my hair out. My pets act like crazies all day. Mondays are the worst for some reason. Maybe they are grumpy that it's the start to another week, or they are grumpy that Josh is at work all day. Although I still don't get it, I have some of the laziest animals in the world. My cat Edmond sleeps all day when my other cat Miam isn't attacking him. My dog Stanley is too fat to really be that crazy on Mondays. But for some reason they muster up the energy to make my Monday hell. Chasing each other all over the house. Rough housing. Finding something to break. Chew something they shouldn't. Fight. That's their day and I feel like I just explained having kids.

My cats are now locked out of both spare bedrooms because one is Nate's (my bro) room. The other one will eventually be the babies room. So now they constantly claw our king sized bed. Dump their food bowl all over the hallway. Are they getting back at me?

I guess I just want to know what makes my animals act like jerks all day on Monday.

Nothing new with the pregnancy stuff. Got an appointment on Wednesday but not for pregnancy related reasons. For my chest piercing that is dangling out of my chest by a string of skin! Hopefully they can remove it all the way. But I am hoping to get an ultrasound that day and maybe just maybe they can determine sex! I'm ready to start buying stuff!! The wait is killing me!

Bell Shot!

14 Weeks 3 Days! I've gain about 20 pounds so far! Not telling what my weight is or how much I weighed before pregnant :)

No more hips. And a little extra back fat. HOT! not.

Swelling and Misery

So for the last couple days I've been having slight swelling in my hands and right foot. So I went to the doctor to make sure I was ok. And of course I was. Blood pressure was perfect, urine was crisp and normal no signs of a blood clot. I was reassured by the blood clot because I was worried that might of been what it was because I am constantly laying in bed. But doctor said I looked good. BUT I need to reduce my salt intake. Which totally makes sense now. A couple days ago I went crazy and bought a bunch of pickles at the store. Just so happens one of those kinds I bought tastes extremely salty. So I'm assuming those are the culprit. Wish I would have bought low sodium pickles because now I can't eat my pickles I got in the fridge. Complete bummer.

I also explained my concern about being short of breath and not being able to move around comfortably without feeling completely exhausted. Apparently that's normal too. Which, I know is a symptom of pregnancy but so soon?!?! I'm only 14 weeks! I still have at least and I mean AT LEAST another 14 weeks to go! I'm probably one of the most miserable pregnant any of you will ever meet! I don't know how some woman are so blessed to have symptom free pregnancies and get pregnant over and over again! I aint one of them. I hope after the babies are born I remember this and don't want to do it ever again! Which is why I'm hoping for a boy and girl. Otherwise I'll be getting pregnant again for sure to have a boy or I'll be very tempted to get pregnant again to get a girl.

I made an appointment with my primary care doctor (not my ob or high risk) to see if she can tell the sexes of the babies! I'll be 15 weeks 1 day. My friend who had twin girls found out around 15 weeks she was having girls. So I'm really excited to hopefully find out! Then people can stop asking and we can stop wondering.

By the way. Have I mentioned... I'M FRICKEN HUGE!

And the biggest news of all. I can very slightly feel them in there!!!! It's the weirdest feeling ever. Only happens occasionally but its a weird fluttery feeling. I can't wait till they are big enough that I can really feel them move!

Food cravings and aversions

So I have what I call the shit list. Which is food I have eaten while pregnant but then get sick after eating it. Two of the main ones are Chinese and pizza. Two of my favorite foods!! I can't eat either of them or I feel like barfing. Milk is an in-between sometimes I can have it sometimes I can't. Nothing spicy! I don't care for chocolate unless it's chocolate cake.

My favorite foods include strawberries, oranges and cheese. And of course like all other pregnant ladies, pickles! Any kind any flavor, I want them! Cherry tomatoes are awesome too! I like potato products like french fries, chips and baked potatoes. Iv been craving steak lately. I also like cheeseburgers a lot too. I also eat Taco Bell like once or twice a week! Chewing gum, weird I know but I crave gum sometimes.


Random pic for the day of my cat Edmond (Shnoodie). I don't crave him lol

Update about my High Risk Appt.

First of all my appointment was way better then my experience on Tuesday. I learned a lot and got a lot of useful information.

Babies are absolutely great, they look perfect in every way. So I'm a little more confident that this pregnancy should last till we have babies to bring home. The risk they have downs syndrome is pretty unlikely since the measurements were perfect. Again not that it matters but if they did have it, it would be good to know so we can plan and educate ourselves. But that's probably unlikely.

I get to see my high risk doctor once a month till the babies come out. At least for now, I'll probably see him more frequent once I get closer to delivery. He will continually check my cervix for any signs of preterm labor. I guess when you use icsi during IVF (they use a needle to implant a sperm into the egg to fertilize it) you have a higher chance of preterm birth. So I'm thankful for that because its something I'm extremely worried about. I mean who wants to carry babies for like 19 weeks just for them to not live because they decided to pop out early. I know I don't.

I have to see my gastro doctor for my chrons disease to make sure its in check because irritated intestines can cause contractions and preterm birth.

One thing that sort of makes me sad and feel bad is that I don't think we will be able to breastfeed. I can't go off my anxiety/panic medications because that can cause me to have panic attacks which obviously result in preterm birth as well. And I can't breastfeed if I'm on them. I was going to try wean off of them but the risk is too high. So I'm sad. I want to give my babies the best (breast milk) and I can't. Which means expensive formula it'll have to be.

His opinion about the hospital choice since Jacksonville's hospital is only level 2 nicu is just that he thinks I'll at least make it to 32 weeks so that way we could deliver at onlsow and everything will be fine. But since I see him frequently if he notices anything abnormal we'll already be in Wilmington so I can just be admitted there. So that makes me happy.

After today's ultrasound we are even more convinced that we are having a boy and girl. Baby B totally looked like a girl and the ultrasound tech kept calling her a girl and said she saw lady parts. No real comments on Baby A but the husband and I both think we saw penis! So I am going to be thrilled if it is a girl and boy!! We will no for sure at our next appointment February 16th! Maybe February 8th at my OB appointment but we will see!

Doctor also put me on more folic acid and extra iron. Just like I thought I needed but the regular OB acted like I was dumb. I swear I know more then they do half the time. He said I'm skin and bones and need to eat more minerals. Including different low mercury fishes and a lot of calcium. I haven't been able to drink much milk because it upsets my stomach but I'll try more yogurt and cheeses. I have been eating those a lot but I guess I need a lot. I love my high risk doctor, he is so thorough and explains everything.

Baby A

Baby B

Baby A heartbeat 160bpm

Baby B heartbeat 153

The technician was very impressed with the bridges of the babies noses. She kept saying they were beautiful :) I guess if you take Josh's huge nose and my smaller nose you get a perfect in-between nose! 

I guess that's it for my update. I feel like I'm forgetting something, but if I think of it I'll put in my next post. And hopefully I can get a belly pic in my next post, I'm just too lazy.

One thing I just remembered. Babies are measuring ahead. Surprisingly Baby B is bigger then A now! Measuring in around 13 weeks 5 days! Baby A was roughly 13 weeks 1 day/2 day. Usually he's ahead of the pack but not for now. We also determined baby B will be our problem child because she just does not cooperate during exams. Today she had her face squished into the placenta for half the ultrasound. And she's breech. But she constantly jumps around and moves. Baby A hopefully will be our laid back boy! :)

It's 5:30am...why not blog/rant

Ok, so if you follow me on Facebook you already know what I'm about to go on about with my ordeal at my new OBs office. It didn't even start there. Here is an overview of how my day was going.

First I went to sell my kirby vacuum to the vacuum guy. That was fortunately a success. But did take forever.
Second, since I hadn't eaten since breakfast I was starving after spending an hour with the vacuum guy so we went to chic fila before my appointment at 2:30. Fine except the gross fruit cup they gave me and the chicken tasted funny, but whatever I ate most of it.
Third we are waiting inline at the drive thru and cops swarm the area and block off like 20 roads, all of which lead to my doctor's office. So that was an hour trip that should have taken literally 2 minutes because we were only right down the street. I new at that point my appointment was not going to go well since that's just how my life normally plays out.

So, we get to the office they make me fill out like 50 sheets of paper. (They then ask me the same questions later, so dumb). I wait a little while, not too long but enough to make me wonder wtf. I go back and Josh isn't allowed to follow yet. Which we aren't used to because our old office let him come with me wherever I went, including getting vitals and getting blood work. So fine whatever I decide not to be a baby and suck it up. Well it was like 30-45 minutes before Id see him again! The nurse had no clue how to use the computer to update my record. and she kept forgetting things and leaving the room and coming back. Seriously wanted to die because it was so hot in the room we were in.

So then they tell me to go wait back in the waiting room. I only wait a couple minutes till they call my name to escort me to the other building in the little cluster of buildings. I go there and sit for like 10 or so minutes till they call my name to only be dragged back to the original waiting room... I talk to a doc for like 2 seconds (complete waste of time). Then I get dragged back across to the other building to wait for my ultrasound. This gets good here :)

So my ultrasound experience was hell. They were doing a NT scan which measures a part of the babies head to check for downs syndrome. Baby B wasn't cooperating so the ultrasound tech was jabbing be with the ultrasound wand and bouncing it up and down on the babies to get them to turn over and move. It hurt and she kept doing it. I didn't say anything because well I'm a shy person and was just going with the flow. But next time I won't be so nice. The scan wasn't even important to me, had I known she was going to be so rough I would have opted out for the test. To be honest I don't care if the babies have downs syndrome, it's not going to change anything.

I then get dragged back to see the doctor again across the way. I express all the concerns I had with delivery and the hospital and all these other things. She was awkward and I didn't like her very much. But theres about 6 or so more doctors at the practice I still have to meet so I'll be patient and see what they are like.

Overall I'm at the doctors from about 2:10 till 5:15. Holy eff! So now I'm exhausted at this point. Concerned my babies are going to have brain damage from being treated like an animal or something. And I find out the local hospital will not care for the babies if they are earlier than 32 weeks. So hopefully they stay in there till at least then. Otherwise things get more complicated with transfers and being away from my babies when they are born. More stress I don't feel like dealing with. Having an anxiety disorder when you're pregnant is not a good mix. It's torture.

So here I am 5 in the morning. Can't sleep. Maybe I should check the babies heart beats since I bought a fetal doppler heart rate monitor. Cuz again, I'm crazy. It's fun though and gives me a piece of mind. Although I keep getting mixed messages on how often I can use it. So for now I do it everyday maybe twice a day depending on my level of activity.

So that's my rant. Just a stressful day that I could have lived without. I'm a little more tired now that I wrote all this and thinking about my exhausting day yesterday has made me tired. So goodbye for now. Pray that my appointment on Thursday with the high risk doctor goes better then yesterday. Thanks.

12 Weeks

Our two little aliens are cooking away. This day at the OB they couldn't see sex organs because the umbilical chords are both between the babies legs. Still she thinks they are one boy and one girl. Not that I would be sad if it was two girls, but I'm dying for at least one boy! So I hope we get lucky! 

Apparently first trimester isn't over till the end of your 12th week. So I'm getting extremely close to be being in my second trimester. I'll be glad to be out of the first, but so far not much has changed mood wise, morning sickness is still lingering, headaches are full force so I'm not sure what relief I'll be getting in the next couple weeks. Hopefully some.

So next week I'll be excited to update on here. I have an appointment with my new OB. The people who will actually be delivering the babies. I also will be getting a non invasive ultrasound that tells you the risk of the babies having downs syndrome. But it's pretty unreliable so Ive heard. But I signed up anyway because I can't get enough of seeing my babies! Next week I also have my high risk appointment with a Maternal Fetal Medicine specialist. Not sure what they do at the first appointment, but my old OB is hoping they do an echo on each of the babies hearts. I was on some medicine in the beginning of my pregnancy that could harm their hearts, so I'm hoping for a good outcome. Which I'm sure it'll be fine since my doctor could see four perfect heart chambers on both babies, so thats a good sign. 

Lastly, I have gained quite a bit of weight already so I need to cut back just a tiny bit. Not doctors orders, but it's still true that I'm gaining too quickly. So I'll just be watching what I eat. (I'm bad and eat big macs on occasion... so maybe no more of those).